Process Makes Perfect

One thing that I have battled throughout my career as an artist is trusting in myself to make mistakes and to be un-precious about my process and sometimes the work that comes out of it. A painting will be across the studio itching and begging to be completed, to have another mark made across the surface, but my nagging self-doubt and inner critic comes out and makes me hesitate to act and react to a process that sometimes feels so natural. Sometimes to get myself out of that head space I will do many automatic small paintings on paper to explore new colors, new formations or to feel less attached to the work, and often time it yields beautiful results and new discoveries. Especially with spectators I think it is tricky to feel like you are doing justice to your work. But following that intuition is so important.